I remember when i was what, 11 or 12.. i was about 5’5 and i weighted about 120 pounds, i wore a size 10 in pants and i thought i was fat.. but now its kinda of sad that in 6 years i gained about 120 pounds. Now all i can ever do is cry because i hate myself, and i hate myself because i’m overweight. I know its stupid.. but i’m in a long distance relationship with a guy.. i’ve been with him for about 2 years now, and when i first met him i didnt think that our relationship was going to last.. so i lied about my weight… i mean i didnt have any friends.. i’ve always been a loner and it just felt good to have someone to talk to for once, and i thought that that if he knew how much i weighted he wouldnt talk to me.. i am about 100 pounds heavyer then him. Then later he started wanting pictures of me and i always took them at an angle that made my face look skinny, and now he wants to come

visit me, hes always talking about how he’s going to pick me up all the time and carry me around.. always tells me how beautiful i am and how i’m this perfect person to him. And then i look in the mirror and try to find this beautiful skinny person that he see’s and i just cant find her.. i cant find the skinny girl that he thinks hes gonna pick up.. cause i know hes not going to be able to pick me up.. i doubt that if we do meet he wont even try to pick me up, he will probably see the 240 pound girl, wouldn’t even doubt it if he just walked away from me.. Maybe i’m stupid for lying about my weight.. but i can honestly say that i didnt think it would come this far. Its not even a maybe i’m stupid.. i am.. i’m stupid for falling in love with a guy thousands of miles away from me, lying about my weight just so i could be happy.

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